I AM SURE OF ONE THING.

I realized today at church that I am at a crossroads in my life. It has been a rough two years, I will not be sad to see 2009 go. But I am not sure I am ready for 2010. I have written about change before, and I will probably write about it again. I do not handle change worth a crap, never have, but I keep trying. I keep trying to do my best, my father would tell me that all you can do is your best. I have had some things that I have based the last ten years of my life on be brought up to my attention that they are not things to base your life on. I do know that I am where I am for a reason, and when the time is right God will reveal that reason in some shape, form or fashion. So, I am now trusting in God to show me the way of the next ten years, and yes, I thought I had listened to him for the last ten years. Oh, and the one thing I am sure of, HE is God and I am not.

Later.

Falling Short

Well, I fell short of my goal of so many posts in so many weeks. Eh, that's life. If I wanted it to be a job I would have gotten a writing degree and hired on at a newspaper.

I have been trying to find my motivation to do a lot of things. I have never had a bucket list, and that bothered me a little. So number one on my list is to learn to surf. Not none of this giant wave stuff, you know, just learn how to ride a wave and not look stupid and not fall off the board every time I get on.

Since the last time I posted God has provided my family with some financial help that has removed some pressure, and it feels good. I have never lost faith that God can get us through anything, it is just the, "His time" thing that gets me sometimes. Now I never got to the point of giving up, but waiting on God, when you know you are supposed to and not take it into your own hands is not easy. I looked for a verse and found this one, Psa 69:3 I am weary with my crying out; my throat is parched. My eyes grow dim with waiting for my God. It did not get that desperate, but there was times that I really questioned was I hearing from God. In the end, I was hearing right, and it was confirmed, by God.

There are some new video projects on the horizon, and a little motivation creeping its way in a little at a time. So life is good.

Until I have posted something new that I have done, watch this
it is for all my mountain bike riding buddies that I have not yet joined on the trail yet, and yes, I realize the guys in the video are downhillers! But it is still some good camera work and bike work.

Later.

What took me so long.

I watched the movie, "Facing the Giants", a month or so ago.  In the movie as the coach of the football team starts realizing that he can not face life on his own, he makes the statement to his team, "We praise Him when we win, and we praise Him when we lose."  I have heard this most of my adult christian life.  But I have just started really trying to live by it and believe it.  Lately I have tried to live where I am and enjoy God, life, my family, where I am. I do not have all the answers to all the questions, but I have let the reality sink in that God is God and on the throne no matter what is going on in the world or in my little section of the world.

Yesterday Pastor Michael used the verse, Philippians 4:4 "Rejoice in the Lord always; again I say, Rejoice."

It just summed up my last few weeks.  Rejoicing in the Lord.  Because there have been some things going on that should have helped me out in life and because of decisions made by people besides me, they did not.  So what do I do?  Well instead of letting it control the way I feel, I just Praise God rejoicing in Him and where he has me and go on Living, Laughing and Loving.

Which I think that might be my new tattoo: Live, Laugh, Love.  I can't take all the credit, recently my mom went back in the hospital for a few days to clear up an ulcer on her leg that she had knee surgery on, (which she is home and doing well, talked to her yesterday) and the nurse trainee that was putting in her I V had it on her arm and it was like wow, that is the tattoo that I have been looking for that sums up where I am and trying to do.

Alright, by my count I am behind on my 2 posts a week for 4 weeks, so we will see what happens.

Later.

Never Ready

About three years ago my fathers' dementia got bad enough that he could not get out of bed.  So since then he has been bed ridden and his health has been getting worse a little each year.  The doctors told us that he would be the same and then he would just get worse, and then he could stay at that level and then get worse again down the road.

Well, my father, Chapple D. Curington, died Sunday night, June 14th around 8pm Central time.

I titled this Never Ready because we have known that he could go quick or he could have lived longer.  When I was younger and we would argue, he told me that when you stood at the casket looking on your dead relative there was nothing else you could do for them.  If the last time you talked to them you left things in a bad way, there was nothing you could do now.  When we moved from Enterprise in 2000, every time we left after a visit I always made sure everything was square between us.  If it happened not to be, I would call him when I got home and make sure it was.  So, everything was good between us the last time I talked to him and he knew who I was.  But although everything was good, something like this you are never ready for.

The picture is from 1996, the fall, we had to quit picking peanuts early to go to Olan Mills to take pictures.  Krutchen was around a year old and we had just found out Kim was pregnant with Katie.  I remember being surprised that Daddy did not complain about us having to quit early.  When we started picking peanuts there was not an off day or a Sunday, it was all peanut picking days until the harvesting was done.

My father was a good man, I had the opportunity to work with him most of my life, this I would not trade for anything.  Thank you Lord for letting me have that opportunity, and thank you Daddy for teaching me how to work and how to live with respect for myself and others.

Later.

 

We Will See

The last few months I kind of checked out.  Mainly from what I had been doing at my church.  Lets just say I got some priorities out of.... priority.  I first blogged from a volunteer staff viewpoint.  As hard as I tried I just could not get into a rhythm.  

Well, I figured it was time to get back into life.  I have had a blog called, "From Behind the Mark", but it was connected to the one I had at CFAN.  

So now I am going to give it a dedicated try.  I used to wonder why I would write a blog, post video or pics and stories about me and my families life?  After some thought and some conversations with God, I have decided I would blog for me.  If anyone else wants to  come along, that is fine too.

This is just good video.

I titled this, We Will See, because we will see how good I do at being me, trying to follow God.

2 blogs a week for the first 4 weeks is my goal.  I love good video, so you will see some video, might even see some video that I have done, no telling.

I have a twitter account,http://twitter.com/scurington have twittered twice in two days, watchout twitterworld, I'm on FIRE!

So, get in, hang on, and lets see where this ride takes us.

Later.